*an old poem from last year that I found while cleaning up and going through some old things of mine. it’s orginally dated 8/18/10*
I’ve become a slave to the unthinkable
I opened my mind to create a gateway
and all your sweet lies have creeped inside
and settled into my thoughts.
Like poison seeping in
and consuming my inner being.
Sucking the life out of all my dignity,
it takes every breath and reveals the insecurity.
Gave you my mind, naturally the heart follows.
Inside my mind living a fantasy,
in love with my own thoughts
of how I thought it would all be.
Mentally bound because I can’t
see beyond the fairy tale.
to face reality means to accept the pain.
But right now I’m not sure I can say I’m exactly sane.
Trying to escape a world built-in my mind
a place where imagination makes it hard to hide.
Rising above the cheap dreams and aspirations
breaking mental strongholds
letting go of the very thoughts that try to enslave me.